Many people remark that they do not have a ‘good’ testimony of how Christ saved them. And by good they often mean, some sort of Acts 9 type experience; where the apostle Paul, the Christian killer, was on his way to continue the persecution of the body of Christ when he was blinded by heaven’s light and knocked off his horse.
But do you have to be in Acts 9 to understand that you are a filthy sinner? Does not your day to day life as a believer testify to the marvelous depths that God has stooped to rescue you from yourself?!
We don’t need Acts 9 to know we are sinners; Romans 7 will do just fine!
I know the magnitude of my sin today far more than I did when I became a believer. As you age in life your physical eyesight may decrease, but as you mature in Christ your spiritual eyesight sharpens!
Paul writes for us in Romans 7 that he does the thing he “hates” (v.15) and that “nothing good” resides in his “flesh” (v.18). The apostle here is fielding double fire from the holy word of God and the Holy Spirit of God; driving home conviction to its core and testifying to his inward wretchedness and subsequent displeasing actions.
If you are a believer then you know this reality; you know that day to day your heart testifies to its deceitful desires (Jer. 17.9) and you know that the Spirit of God convicts you of these things (praise God!), and works to bring you into conformity to the image of Christ.
It is good to stand unimpressed with ourselves because it breeds discontentment with ourselves; and this serves to make Christ more precious to the believer. It is a gracious act of providence that God daily draws us further away from ourselves as he conforms us to the image of Christ.
At the end of the day it is not our testimony anyway, it is God’s!! It is God who has reached his holy hand into the filthy sewer of our sinfulness to rescue us from ourselves! It is God who is now tirelessly and faithfully conforming saints into the image of his glorious Son. And so therefore, it is God alone who gets the glory, honor and praise!
Romans 7:24-25 Wretched man that I am! Who will set me free from the body of this death? 25 Thanks be to God through Jesus Christ our Lord!